Posted by Adam Cortez – January 22, 2013

Fear

I don’t always see the light I used to inspire.
I fear my touch and my words leave more to be desired.

Not only in the world’s eyes has my shade darken
But I fear to you I maybe beyond broken.

I constantly feel like I can never give you enough
And in my mind I sometimes see you seeking it through others.

I’ve opened my heart, soul, mind and body to you and I’m told it’s not my all.
If you expect perfection I’m always going to fall.

I told you in the beginning that I wasn’t going to wait for you to be perfect
But sometimes I feel you hesitating and holding your breath for me.

You tell me that you love me and that you’re forever only mine
But I still fear for the day you tell me that you’re lying.

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 24, 2012

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Failure and Creativity

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 22, 2012

 

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This poster correctly states that if you are not ready to screw up, make a mistake, and take a chance you are not ready to be a person. The only way to successfully achieve creative apex. As students you are conditioned to avoid failure at all cost, but with out it you cannot look for ways to make greater improvements on your work. Failure is just a stepping stone to creating great work.

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Posted by Adam Cortez – December 22, 2012

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sometimes i take a Shower
with the lights off.
but before i even finish showering, i turn the lights back On,
because i remember how afraid of the dark i am.

sometimes i go to the Airport
and just sit in there for a few hours.
because i like watching people Reunite.

sometimes i cut my Fingernails way too short.
like, down to the quicks.
because it’s an odd feeling, the way my fingertips Hurt
every time i touch something.

sometimes i go out in public without my Shoes,
because i like feeling the Real ground,
not just the inside of my shoes.

sometimes i re-arrange my Bedroom,
but then i change it right back
because everyone knows that there isn’t a single person
in the world that isn’t afraid of Change.

sometimes i try reading books Upside-down
because i think thats what it would be like if i couldn’t
Read
at all.

sometimes i just sit and watch the Grass grow,
because we’re lucky that it even grows in the First
place.

sometimes i do things.
sometimes i don’t.

Source: www.redbubble.com/people/dearhonestyx/writing/2406002-untitled/

hmmm what do I like?

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 16, 2012

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What do I want to do?

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 16, 2012

Lately I have been giving some thought to what I want to do two years from now, five years from now, and twenty years from now. There are so many possibilities of what I can do that it has been throwing me for a loop. There are so many factors that are contributing to my decisions that I feel that it is almost impossible to truly make up my mind.

While I have been working for almost four years straight now, it should at least given a little insite to what my future goals should be, they have totaly deteared me from my starting goal. Orignonaly I had planned to attend school and get my degree in MIS (Business with technology) or a Computer Engineering BS. Now both of those options seem unfeesable. I love technology and I understand it enough to make my living in it, but I do not like learning about it, hence my change in course.

Recently I have given quite a lo of thought to going to school to get my BA in History, (not sure exactly what history) with a minor in English. These two subjects have inspired me greatly over my high school carrer, and I have noticed that in todays workforce, you MUST be able to write well. Most teenagers that are walking out of school right now can barly write at a middle school standard, which to me is very sad. I think that Language and Liturature are a staple foundation on how humans to comunicate and express themselves. Without that foundation we are with out hope of any advancment in any aspect of our future.

This brings me to History. Without history we have no foundation to base off our future. Our history and roots, that be US History, Midevil History, European History, all give us a vauled informative base to advacne our civilization. Our behaviors, patterns, and livelyhoods are all stored in the memory banks of our history books. With all that information ready to be accessed, it is a shame not to utalize it to further our knowledge base and foundation.

With that I am left and a fork in the road. What do I do? Study and study and teach? My mind is still unclear on what path to take, but there is still a lot if ground work to be done.

President Obama Honors Shooting Victims

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 14, 2012

Our Cruel World

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 14, 2012

A lot has been going through my head all day today, and my emotions are all over the place. How does one deal with all of these horrible things that go on in the world. In the past few months I have had a car full of family members suffer an accident that has left them in the hospital for months fighting for their life in 20 surgeries  My Uncle is suffering from heart failure, and my grandpa had a stroke and heart attack. Now to hear that 20 children were killed along with teachers!

How in anyones mind could that quantify as a thinkable act. How fucked up does a person have to be for them to go to a kindergarden class and execute 5 year olds. We were all 5 at one point. Do you remember those days. You were coloring, singing, building with blocks. You were day dreaming of being a police officer or a firefighter. These children that died today cannot do that anymore. They were taken away their right to day dream. They were taken away from a future of life and happiness. Those children will never get to run down the street to see their friends, get to go on a date, experience the joys of life.

The parents of those children and of the children that did survive will have to grieve every day and hope that there is some ounce of good in this world. Every parent will hug their children a little tighter, and ever son, daughter, and family member will embrace and remember that family is all we have.

It sickens me to think that those children will never experience life.

Shooting in Connecticut

Posted by Adam Cortez – December 14, 2012

Its a sad day when you find out that there is another shooting. The students at Sandy Hook Elementary school morn the loss of over 20 dead. People are cruel and un-human. How could anyone justify hurting innocent children. My thoughts and prayers go out to the family and victims of the shooting. Gods Speed.

My First Blog on New Site

Posted by Adam Cortez – March 6, 2012

Hello all, who either found this because they know me, or just randomly came across this site. I built this site originally as a test site for most of my projects that I work on for work, and it started to grow even more. I found that I need a platform that I could work from and add complex things to, thus I moved from Tumblr to WordPress.

All the stuff you will find on this website will be my personal work and finding that I come across on a daily, weekly, or monthly basis. If something is not my work I will be sure to let, you, my audience know, and credit the author of that so work.

That being said,  I will be working a lot on this site, and will try to update it regularly, especially when I move to London, England.

Cheers for now!